Boxes are made for breaking open

“I’m shattering your boxes”

A statement I believe the lord has said to me, in many different ways, in many times the last year.

Want to hear a personal testimony that might shake some feathers and rattle your box too?

My religious mindset had me more bound than anything else when I truly started pursuing God intimately.

You see, I grew up in church. Went off to find myself in the world and got utterly wrecked. I went back to church licking my wounds; but for years I struggled still. Then something, started shifting..

I stopped relying on someone else to tell me about god and started looking to him directly. He had to break me out of so many boxes. Renew my mind. I couldn’t have done it on my own.

Somehow over the course of my life I had picked up beliefs, mindsets, “theology” that weren’t true in regards to :

God’s love

God’s judgement

The supernatural

The gifts of the spirit

The trinity

Why? Why did I believe the things I did?

Did God ever reveal these things to me personally? No. Did he even tell me them in his word ? No.. and I certainly hadn’t searched for his truth with Holy Spirit in the Bible long and hard enough to be sure of it either.

I picked them up from man. From things I heard, things I read. From other people’s thoughts. “Knowledge”.

And then… I had my first supernatural encounter with god. I didn’t know what to do. Or how to make sense of it, I hadn’t been “taught” this.

From that moment on- to date I have felt the lord tell me, there’s a choice to be made.

Do I hold on to what “I” believed. Read. Learned. Thought.

Or do I hold on, hold fast and trust what God says.

What his truth is. What he reveals to me?

He has been breaking me, delivering me of the religion that kept me in a box, and put him in it too.

God has recklessly freed me so much. His spirit has brought me to his truth. He has given me the grace to see, to know, to believe, to experience.

I’ve found myself over the course of the last year often times wondering what world I’ve left behind and what I’ve stepped into.

How I can’t ever go back to the lies, deceptions, thoughts I once believed because the truth is so evident now.

I’ve felt it, I’ve tasted it, I’ve seen.

The kingdom of god is here.

It is now.

Jesus tells us, if we believe in him- we are a part of it, we walk in it.

We receive it and we give it, freely.

I am saddened that it took me so long to grasp the understanding and truth of his kingdom. Of his love. Of how personal he is. However, the sadness is outweighed by the joy, the thankfulness and the excitement that I have, for god himself has delivered, and continues to, deliver me of the religion that suppressed the kingdom from moving in my life.

So I speak to give a voice to the unseen things. Even if I sound “off” the wall, I don’t care. I talk about it to help others. I speak because he has called me out of the shadow of religious mindsets and into the kingdom of light- the kingdom of god.

He is a good, good father. Trust him.

The choice is ours, always.

To come to him with child-like faith, that he may strengthen us in his grace and love.

Are we willing, are we able, to come to him in that kind of humility, laying down at the altar all that we’ve spent our life working in our own flesh to know?

Are we ready to give up our religion for his relationship?

His kingdom is here, and he wants you in it.

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." - Matthew 6:33

"For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking, but of righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit." - Romans 14:17

Being asked by the Pharisees when the kingdom of God would come, he answered them, “The kingdom of God is not coming in ways that can be observed, nor will they say, ‘Look, here it is!’ or ‘There!’ for behold, the kingdom of God is in the midst of you.” Luke 17:20-21

“Stop trusting in mere humans who have but a breath in their nostrils. Why hold them in esteem? Isaiah 2:22

And he said: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever takes the lowly position of this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. Matthew 18:2-4